Post by `emz0, bby. on Jul 22, 2007 11:43:07 GMT -5
sorry its short, i can't measure how long it is typed in a notebook
Sonny pulled away, smiled at me, and then looked at his hands. “I know you have a boyfriend, but I really wanted to do that.” I smiled and blushed. Nobody ever wanted to kiss me besides Frank. There was an awkward silence, which was to be expected. At least I expected it. Sonny drove me home, and I fell asleep, dreaming of my friends. The next day was Saturday, so I woke up late. I walked downstairs to find Aiden on the phone with his girlfriend. I really doubted her existence because I haven’t met her since they started dating four months ago. Three hours later I was sitting on the couch doing absolutely nothing by myself when Frank walked in. “Hey, Frankie,” I said, getting up to hug him. “Sit down. We need to talk.” He sounded angry, which caused panic to rise up within me. “What’s the matter?” “Someone said that you kissed Sonny. Please tell me they were lying.” “I’d tell you they were, but I love you too much to lie to you.” I knew he was upset. I saw it in his face, and it killed me. “Why?” “I don’t know. He kissed me and I kissed him back. I didn’t even tell myself to. If you hate me, I understand.” “Yeah,” he said, walking out the front door. I knew it was over. It had to be. I knew him well enough to know that he wouldn’t just walk out unless it was over. I laid down on the couch and cried. I knew I couldn’t live without him. A stupid kiss ruined my fucking life, I thought. I would call him, but I know he won’t answer. I spent the rest of the day crying and wallowing in self-pity. The next day, Aiden made me go to the mall with him, so I composed myself and went with him. I was fine. I had even forgot about it for a while. Then, I saw Frank hanging out with MCR and Rachel, my supposed best friend . Frank had his arm around another girl’s shoulders. He already had someone else? It felt like a knife went through my heart. We locked eyes for a few seconds, and then he looked away. I still love him a lot. More than I think I’m letting on. Aiden noticed. “You still love him to death, don’t you?” “Yes,” I replied, feeling a single tear roll down my cheek. I cried, but silently. One of the guys noticed, because someone [Bob I think] said, “Dude, she’s crying.” I needed to leave, and the closest way out was by them. I did what I had to do. I felt their eyes burn holes into me as I walked past. “I feel so bad,” I heard Gerard say. I sat down on the curb and cried, wishing I had never gone along with the kiss. I heard the door open and someone sat down next to me. It was that girl Frank had his arm around. She lit up a cigarette. “Want one?” she asked. “No,” I answered. I got up and went to find Aiden. When I walked past, I glanced at Frank. He really looked miserable, like maybe he was going to cry. “Hey Brit.” I looked up and saw Ray had said that. “Hey,” I said, looking back at the ground after picking my head up for a brief moment. I noticed Aiden and walked over to him. “I was just about to go find you so we could leave.” “Have you talked to Frank since yesterday?” “Yeah, why?” “How did he sound?” “He sounded depressed.” I looked back at him and now he looked completely happy. The girl wasn’t there, but he looked like he forgot about me. Life was perfect for Frank. I suddenly filled with rage. He was having a great time while I was dying little by little inside. At least school is over in a week. Aiden was on the phone the whole ride home, and I finally found out once we got inside. “Brit, you probably wont want to go, but I was wondering if you wanted to go on a road trip with us.” I knew who he meant by ‘us’. Our group, minus Sonny. “Sure, I’ll go.” I only have a problem with one person, and that isn’t enough to keep me away from my friends that are going. We went into the house and just as I sat down Sonny called me. “Hello?” “Hey, Brit. I heard about what happened, and I’m really sorry.” “It’s okay,” I said, the sadness in my voice becoming apparent. “Wanna hang out?” “Sure.” “Okay, see you soon.” “Bye.” I hung up and sighed. I don’t want to hang out with him, but I’m not one to say no to people. I looked over at Aiden and saw he was on the phone again. I heard him say the name Alison and at the end of the conversation he said I love you, so it must have been his girlfriend. “Aiden, what’s your girlfriend’s name?” “Alison.” “What’s she look like?” “Long blonde hair, tan, and she’s kinda a prep.” “No way. Is her last name, perhaps, Landon?” “Yeah, you know her?” “Do I know her? I used to b best friends with her, but now we hate each other. And she hit on Frank last weekend when we went out.” “No she didn’t.” “Even if I hated the girl to no end, do you think I would lie to my brother about his girlfriend to cause him pain?” “No, of course not.” “Aiden, have you been telling her secrets?” “What kinda secrets?” “Like that I 'fucked the guitar player in that sucky band', as she put it?” “I told her not to say anything!” “Which means you also told her Sonny kissed me, and she found a way to get it to Frank.” “Oh my God, Brit, I’m so sorry.” Just then, Sonny walked in. “What’s up?” he said as he sat next to me on the couch. He was kinda close. Actually, he was very close. “Hey Sonny,” I replied. “I was just leaving. See ya later, Sonny.” Aiden is just the greatest, leaving me alone with the guy who made my boyfriend break up with me. “So what have you been up to?” Sonny said, moving his hand closer to mine. “Nothing much. I gotta start packing soon for a road trip.” “Who are you going with?” “Aiden, Rachel, Bob, Ray, Gerard, Mikey, and Frank.” “Are you sure you want to go on a road trip with him after he broke up with you?” “I’m okay with everyone else, so why wouldn’t I want to go?” “I’m just worried he’ll hurt you more is all.” “I’ll be fine.” “Good.” Sonny put his arms around me and went to kiss me again. I pushed him away. “Sonny, I don’t like you like that. I still love Frank.” “After he broke up with you, you still love him?” “Yeah. He’s perfect. I know he deserves better than me, but I still love him.” “No, you deserve better than him.” “There is no better than him.” “I’m better than him.” I’ve never seen this side of Sonny before. “No you aren’t. And now I know what you really are. You’re a conceited camera whore.” “Fuck you,” Sonny retorted, walking out the door. Acting like nothing just happened, I went upstairs to pack.
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Sonny pulled away, smiled at me, and then looked at his hands. “I know you have a boyfriend, but I really wanted to do that.” I smiled and blushed. Nobody ever wanted to kiss me besides Frank. There was an awkward silence, which was to be expected. At least I expected it. Sonny drove me home, and I fell asleep, dreaming of my friends. The next day was Saturday, so I woke up late. I walked downstairs to find Aiden on the phone with his girlfriend. I really doubted her existence because I haven’t met her since they started dating four months ago. Three hours later I was sitting on the couch doing absolutely nothing by myself when Frank walked in. “Hey, Frankie,” I said, getting up to hug him. “Sit down. We need to talk.” He sounded angry, which caused panic to rise up within me. “What’s the matter?” “Someone said that you kissed Sonny. Please tell me they were lying.” “I’d tell you they were, but I love you too much to lie to you.” I knew he was upset. I saw it in his face, and it killed me. “Why?” “I don’t know. He kissed me and I kissed him back. I didn’t even tell myself to. If you hate me, I understand.” “Yeah,” he said, walking out the front door. I knew it was over. It had to be. I knew him well enough to know that he wouldn’t just walk out unless it was over. I laid down on the couch and cried. I knew I couldn’t live without him. A stupid kiss ruined my fucking life, I thought. I would call him, but I know he won’t answer. I spent the rest of the day crying and wallowing in self-pity. The next day, Aiden made me go to the mall with him, so I composed myself and went with him. I was fine. I had even forgot about it for a while. Then, I saw Frank hanging out with MCR and Rachel, my supposed best friend . Frank had his arm around another girl’s shoulders. He already had someone else? It felt like a knife went through my heart. We locked eyes for a few seconds, and then he looked away. I still love him a lot. More than I think I’m letting on. Aiden noticed. “You still love him to death, don’t you?” “Yes,” I replied, feeling a single tear roll down my cheek. I cried, but silently. One of the guys noticed, because someone [Bob I think] said, “Dude, she’s crying.” I needed to leave, and the closest way out was by them. I did what I had to do. I felt their eyes burn holes into me as I walked past. “I feel so bad,” I heard Gerard say. I sat down on the curb and cried, wishing I had never gone along with the kiss. I heard the door open and someone sat down next to me. It was that girl Frank had his arm around. She lit up a cigarette. “Want one?” she asked. “No,” I answered. I got up and went to find Aiden. When I walked past, I glanced at Frank. He really looked miserable, like maybe he was going to cry. “Hey Brit.” I looked up and saw Ray had said that. “Hey,” I said, looking back at the ground after picking my head up for a brief moment. I noticed Aiden and walked over to him. “I was just about to go find you so we could leave.” “Have you talked to Frank since yesterday?” “Yeah, why?” “How did he sound?” “He sounded depressed.” I looked back at him and now he looked completely happy. The girl wasn’t there, but he looked like he forgot about me. Life was perfect for Frank. I suddenly filled with rage. He was having a great time while I was dying little by little inside. At least school is over in a week. Aiden was on the phone the whole ride home, and I finally found out once we got inside. “Brit, you probably wont want to go, but I was wondering if you wanted to go on a road trip with us.” I knew who he meant by ‘us’. Our group, minus Sonny. “Sure, I’ll go.” I only have a problem with one person, and that isn’t enough to keep me away from my friends that are going. We went into the house and just as I sat down Sonny called me. “Hello?” “Hey, Brit. I heard about what happened, and I’m really sorry.” “It’s okay,” I said, the sadness in my voice becoming apparent. “Wanna hang out?” “Sure.” “Okay, see you soon.” “Bye.” I hung up and sighed. I don’t want to hang out with him, but I’m not one to say no to people. I looked over at Aiden and saw he was on the phone again. I heard him say the name Alison and at the end of the conversation he said I love you, so it must have been his girlfriend. “Aiden, what’s your girlfriend’s name?” “Alison.” “What’s she look like?” “Long blonde hair, tan, and she’s kinda a prep.” “No way. Is her last name, perhaps, Landon?” “Yeah, you know her?” “Do I know her? I used to b best friends with her, but now we hate each other. And she hit on Frank last weekend when we went out.” “No she didn’t.” “Even if I hated the girl to no end, do you think I would lie to my brother about his girlfriend to cause him pain?” “No, of course not.” “Aiden, have you been telling her secrets?” “What kinda secrets?” “Like that I 'fucked the guitar player in that sucky band', as she put it?” “I told her not to say anything!” “Which means you also told her Sonny kissed me, and she found a way to get it to Frank.” “Oh my God, Brit, I’m so sorry.” Just then, Sonny walked in. “What’s up?” he said as he sat next to me on the couch. He was kinda close. Actually, he was very close. “Hey Sonny,” I replied. “I was just leaving. See ya later, Sonny.” Aiden is just the greatest, leaving me alone with the guy who made my boyfriend break up with me. “So what have you been up to?” Sonny said, moving his hand closer to mine. “Nothing much. I gotta start packing soon for a road trip.” “Who are you going with?” “Aiden, Rachel, Bob, Ray, Gerard, Mikey, and Frank.” “Are you sure you want to go on a road trip with him after he broke up with you?” “I’m okay with everyone else, so why wouldn’t I want to go?” “I’m just worried he’ll hurt you more is all.” “I’ll be fine.” “Good.” Sonny put his arms around me and went to kiss me again. I pushed him away. “Sonny, I don’t like you like that. I still love Frank.” “After he broke up with you, you still love him?” “Yeah. He’s perfect. I know he deserves better than me, but I still love him.” “No, you deserve better than him.” “There is no better than him.” “I’m better than him.” I’ve never seen this side of Sonny before. “No you aren’t. And now I know what you really are. You’re a conceited camera whore.” “Fuck you,” Sonny retorted, walking out the door. Acting like nothing just happened, I went upstairs to pack.
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